Chapter 91 - The Meaning of That Act
This kind of thing, the longer you hide it, the worse it tends to get.Maybe if I confessed everything, she'd lend me her strength?Such a naive thought wells up within me.Actually, Ayako-chan, if you set aside her sexual proclivities, isn't really a bad person, and I can probably talk to her normally, right?Should I just say it already, me?"Ayako-chan, actually...""It's done."Just as I was about to begin, Ayako-chan brought in a late-night snack.Holding plates in both hands, she narrowed her eyes with a beaming smile."...Ah, thank you.""Should I serve you some rice, too?""...That would be a great help."Laughing that Nakamoto-san really loves his white rice, Ayako-chan knelt up.Reaching out her arms just like that, she arranged the plates.When a girl with such voluptuous curves takes this kind of posture, what happens goes without saying."..."It was a surprise attack.A deep valley was perfectly visible from her collar.Two white hemispheres swayed gently with the movement of her arms.Huge.Maybe it's because I had prior information that she's a full cup size above Angelica, but I feel it all the more.And on top of that, if she's not wearing a bra, you could probably call this a visual weapon specialized for use against males.It's truly a sight that's poison to the eyes.Actually, isn't she showing this off?Ayako-chan has been awfully close today, so it enters my vision whether I like it or not.Even though I don't want to see this.Even though I hate it.I want to act as Ayako-chan's guardian, to the very end.I don't want to see her as a woman.And yet, when something makes me conscious of her as a sexual object, I feel an overwhelming urge to die.I can't forgive myself for harboring such feelings toward a child like this.Even if parts of her body have developed to the level of an adult woman, as long as her inner self is a minor, I must behave as her guardian.The morals within me whisper that I must only look at women my own age with those kinds of eyes.However, my body reacts chaotically when the partner is a young woman.It's the worst. I'm hopeless. I'm a beast. I want to dig a hole and bury myself in it.While deeply agonizing, I averted my gaze from Ayako-chan.Well, this is just a matter of not looking.Even so, there was a bewitching magical power that nailed my eyeballs in place for a few seconds.It might be a kind of petrification magic.The female body is amazing, I was thinking such grandiose thoughts alone when my face was grabbed firmly."?"And then, I was forcefully turned around.The chest I thought I had just looked away from leaped back into my field of vision."Ah, Ayako-chan? What in the world is it?""...Why did you stop looking?""Huh?""...Why did you stop looking at my chest?""Ha? Ah? Huh? I-I wasn't looking from the start, you know?""That's a lie. I clearly felt your gaze staring intently.""...Um.""Nakamoto-san, after you look at my chest, you always fix your gaze from the neck up with a face that says 'Oh no.' ...I've properly noticed, you know. That kind of thing."You're kidding, right?My advanced gaze concealment technique was completely seen through?Just what is this girl? A sensation akin to a chill runs up my spine."...By the way, it seems Angelica-san has also noticed.""Seriously!?""I think most women in the world notice.""W-What...""...Just as you men look at us, we women also look at men. That's why we notice."Especially if the person is someone you like, Ayako-chan said."...If someone I'm not interested in stares at me, it's disgusting... but if it's Nakamoto-san looking, it's fine.""I-Is that so.""...It's not just fine, I'm even happy about it.""You're not angry, right? Right?""...Or rather, it makes my heart pound...""Huh?"Ayako-chan's cheeks are faintly tinged with red.It shouldn't have been such a good atmosphere, so what's gotten into her?Ignoring my hesitation, the girl grows even more forward.She changed her posture from kneeling up to sitting formally, and tightly grasped my hand."W-What's wrong?""...With me, it's fine.""What is...?""...I'm always ready to be Nakamoto-san's partner. Even today, I came prepared with that resolve. ...I-It's embarrassing, but I intended to do things like seducing you myself.""So when I thought you were clinging to me somehow, you had steeled such a determination?"Why? I ask Ayako-chan, who has become as red as a boiled octopus."...That's...""That's?"Ayako-chan bites her lower lip, making an expression as if enduring shame.When it comes to the reason a girl would do something like trying to seduce me..."W-Well...""Well?""...Because... Nakamoto-san... is...""What? I can't hear you?"I know it's not a good thing, but I end up teasing her.A quiet girl like Ayako-chan has shown such forwardness.She's about to tell me a cute, and slightly indecent, motive now.More than lecherousness, it's the fun of teasing a younger girl that puts me into interrogation mode."Why did you want to seduce me? Tell me.""...Because.""What was that?""It's because Nakamoto-san is pent up!!""I am!?""I've noticed that these past few days, Nakamoto-san has been going to those kinds of shops and receiving se... sexual services!""Hell no!?""You come home awfully late! You come back with your hair slightly damp! The smell of a woman wafts strongly from you! ...Isn't that the only thing I can think of!? I understand that you're probably holding back because Angelica-san and I are still children. But, even so, I hate the idea of you becoming a regular at those kinds of shops! Rather than you doing something like that, I'd much rather you lay your hands on me! I will... I will take care of Nakamoto-san's sexual desires!""Keep your voice down, Angelica will wake up!?"Just as expected, Angelica, who had been breathing in her sleep on the bed just a few dozen centimeters away, opened her eyes with a snap.With a sleepy face, she says things like, "You're being loud, Ayako~?""I am merely trying to become pregnant. Please continue sleeping.""...Ah, is that so~"Apparently still half-asleep, Angelica returned to her dreams once more."I am proposing this for Nakamoto-san's sake. ...Playing around in places like that costs money, doesn't it? And it seems like you might catch a disease someday. ...With me, I have no experience with s-sexual intercourse. So I think it's absolutely safe.""Isn't a girl who approaches me on the premise of pregnancy the least safe option...?"Ayako-chan appeals to me with a desperate expression.It's a much more serious face than during the multiplication incident."...It's the salary Nakamoto-san earned, so you're free to use it how you like... but... womanizing is the one thing I hate...""I told you, you've got it wrong!"I can't be hemming and hawing anymore.Left with no choice, I decided to explain the circumstances to Ayako-chan.That High Priest Philia was an old comrade, and I couldn't bear to kill her.That her mental age has now regressed, and she's been rendered harmless.That I'm sheltering her in a business hotel in the city.Ayako-chan was nodding obediently partway through.But, when I said I had to put a diaper on Philia because she wets the bed, the light vanished from her eyes."...Huh? ...What? I'm sorry, what did you just say?""She's scared of going to the bathroom at night, or something. That girl ends up wetting herself by morning. So I have no choice but to put her in adult diapers.""...No..."A tear trickled down Ayako-chan's cheek."...Then, was Nakamoto-san's first diaper stolen by that person...?""I'm sorry, what is that ominous word?""...A man might not understand, but... For a girl, having the man she likes put a diaper on her holds a special meaning.""I don't think anyone would understand that, not just men."That's not true, she asserts."Angelica-san should have the same opinion as me. Please watch."So saying, Ayako-chan started lightly slapping Angelica's butt.Perhaps because she's quite worked up, her way of waking her is rough."...Nn. You've been noisy for a while now.""Angelica-san, Angelica-san. How would you feel if the man you liked put a diaper on you?""...Well, I'd be happy, of course. It's like having an engagement ring placed on your ring finger. Isn't that obvious?""See! Please tell Nakamoto-san so he understands!""...Hmm? Does Father want to know? It can't be helped, then."Mumbling, Angelica raised herself up and began her explanation."Welcome home, Father. How noisy it is at this late hour, honestly.""...I'm home. I don't even know how it came to this.""Well, fine. If Father wants to know, I'll teach you no matter the hour. ...Ahem, for us daddy-con girls, a diaper change holds a special meaning. On the day our beloved Papa does something like that for us, the baby in our hearts is overjoyed. Frankly speaking, it's a higher form of affection than sex, I'd say.""Is that a perfectly normal thing in the daddy-con industry?""Well, in the lower world, it would be an act equivalent to a proposal, perhaps.""Is the daddy-con industry located in the heavens? Hey?"Angelica continues while stifling a yawn."From our sensibilities... Having Papa put a diaper on you is almost equivalent to engagement. Having Papa rub his stubbly face against yours is like sex. Having Papa give you a piggyback ride... is equivalent to a deep kiss, I suppose.""You were frequently rubbing your face against mine and enjoying the feel of my stubble, but to you, that was practically like forcing a sexual act on me, huh? You're an outrageous daughter, you know that?""...B-But why did you suddenly ask about this?"Perhaps realizing the conversation was heading in a bad direction, Angelica diverted the topic with a perfectly natural flow."...It seems Nakamoto-san couldn't kill the High Priest.""Isn't that fine? I'd hate it more if Father became a cold-blooded person.""But the High Priest, her mind regressed from the shock during battle, and now her inner self has regressed to about the level of a six-year-old.""People sure can change, can't they.""Since she can't go to the bathroom alone at night, Nakamoto-san is putting diapers on her.""Ah!!"Cheater, cheater, Angelica swings her pillow around."No way! Why are you putting a diaper on another woman! I'd still rather you just had normal sex with her! Geez! I can't believe this!""...I can't believe your guys' fetishes."While watching the dust flutter up in puffs, I imagined Philia, who is probably fussing at the hotel.Even though it's so noisy over here, that girl is spending her time alone and lonely even now.I want to do something for her, but...