Chapter 106 - Chapter 103: Episode 101 - Amnesia
It was agonizing to be pressed hard from behind, treated as nothing more than a machine meant to pump out semen.
His penis ached from Miel's tight grip, but what made it even harder for Seon-ah to bear was the fact that it was Sophia engaging in such violent behavior.
'Why...? Sophia...'
After being drained to his limit, his breathing was ragged and his entire body felt hollowed out.
If this kept up, he knew he'd lose his mind.
Then, he heard it.
Sophia was muttering to herself.
"Tomorrow, too... do I have to do this again... for a succubus to get pregnant..."
He couldn't catch the rest of her mumbling, but the realization that he would have to endure this all over again was excruciating.
Even if this was the price for his infidelity, it was too cruel.
His heart ached, shattered by the sight of the woman he loved acting no different from the ones who had raped him.
'I don't want to... trust women anymore... in the end, this is what happens...'
He hadn't had much luck with women since his previous life.
From the girlfriend and ex-girlfriend who only fought with each other while leaving him to die, to the horrific, persistent rapes in this current life...
He couldn't hold onto his sanity any longer. Seon-ah just wanted to give up on everything.
All he wanted was to be freed from this trauma, keeping only the happy memories of his parents.
The memories of his previous life, along with every recollection of Yu-rin and the women who had tormented him in this one, were erased from his heart as if they had never existed.
And so, Lee Seon-ah.
Closed the door to his heart.
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When Seon-ah opened his eyes, Sophia greeted him with an apologetic expression.
Once her arousal had faded, she felt sick with guilt for committing such a terrible act against him and intended to apologize.
"Seon-ah? You're awake... I'm sorry about yesterday... for a succubus to get pregnant..."
However, the words that came out of Seon-ah's mouth as he looked at her were neither an acceptance of her apology nor an expression of anger.
"Mom?... Where is this?"
His tone was that of a young child, and he looked at Sophia as if she were his mother.
A cold dread washed over her; something had gone terribly wrong.
"Seon-ah, what do you mean?... Lee Seon-ah?"
Bewildered, she touched his body and stroked his face with a trembling hand, desperate to see if he was alright.
"Mom? Why are you doing this?... Where am I?..."
Seeing him act as if he had regressed to his childhood, Sophia was deeply shocked.
It seemed her overworking him had triggered a trauma, and the stress had shattered his memories.
"I'm sorry... Seon-ah... I'm truly sorry... I should have thought of you first... I was wrong..."
Regret gnawed at her.
She shouldn't have listened to him. She knew this would happen, yet she had forced the situation anyway.
She should have asked other demons, not succubi, to bear her children.
If she had done that, she wouldn't have had to engage in such painful intercourse, and Seon-ah wouldn't have ended up like this.
It was all her own fault, driven by her desperate desire to secure a vessel quickly.
"Mom... it's okay... Seon-ah will forgive everything..."
He said he would forgive her, but she realized those words weren't meant for her.
He was trying to comfort Min-ah, the original owner of the body, seeing her looking so sad.
As if he didn't even realize the owner of the body had changed...
Just like the image of the good child that remained in Min-ah's memories...
Hot tears streamed down Sophia's face.
She embraced him, her hands trembling as she chewed on her own regret.
This was the result of her own lack of virtue.
She had committed an act no different from the ruthless rape she had performed when she first made a contract with him.
Sophia had to ensure he wouldn't suffer anymore.
Even if he had changed like this...
She had no choice but to abandon her resolution not to imitate Min-ah.
No, she realized she had to play the role of his mother even more devotedly than Min-ah ever had.
That was the best way she could think of to make it up to him.
"No, Seon-ah... Mom just made a small mistake... I'm sorry... How can our Seon-ah be so pretty..."
Even if there was no way to turn back time, she could at least do this.
She would become the mother that this young, regressed version of Seon-ah needed.
And she promised herself that someday, when he regained his memories, she would make sure to convey this deep regret and apology.
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Miel felt a sharp pain between her legs.
She regained consciousness from a sensation that felt as if something large had penetrated her and stirred her up violently.
And then, the memories began to flood back.
The woman who had pretended to rescue her from the dungeon, only to lock her up and manipulate her memories at will once a bounty was placed on her.
She remembered the terrible things Bianca, her sister, had done to her.
And she remembered everything—even the fact that the 'real Seon-ah' had been sleeping in her arms before she woke up from that nightmare.
The real Seon-ah, not the one who showed only the appearance she wanted through implanted hallucinations, had been in her arms until he fell asleep.
She couldn't forget that warm, soft sensation.
For the first time, Miel felt a surge of gratitude toward Seon-ah for waking her from Bianca's brainwashing.
Miel opened her eyes, desperate to see him and express her thanks.
However, what she saw instead was...
Seon-ah, wearing a confused expression, held in Min-ah's arms.
And Min-ah, hugging him while sobbing, her face a mask of desperation.
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Lee Min-ah.
As far as Miel knew, she was his mother.
The last thing Miel remembered was uncovering the lies of Yu-rin and herself at the mansion and rescuing Seon-ah.
She didn't quite understand how they had ended up meeting again like this.
Why had they saved her from the brainwashing?
From Min-ah's perspective, Miel was a sinner who had brainwashed Seon-ah and treated him like a toy.
Instead of killing her on the spot, which would have been justified, why show such grace?
She watched Min-ah sobbing, holding Seon-ah close.
She could tell by the look on Seon-ah's face that his memories had flown away, just as they had when she had broken his mind before.
Because he often regressed to the mind of a young child when she pushed his fragile psyche past its limit, she recognized the signs all too well.
Honestly, his mind was unstable because she had played with him too much, but he was weak-minded to begin with.
Especially when she toyed with memories related to his family; those episodes were always the most severe.
She wanted to help him recover, but she lacked the courage to approach Min-ah.
She was the one who had shattered his mind repeatedly; Min-ah would never trust her.
She had committed such heinous acts that even if her head were blown off on the spot, she would have nothing to say. Restoring his mind would be a task that required risking her own life.
Her credibility hadn't just hit rock bottom; it had dug deep into the earth.
But if Seon-ah hadn't awakened her like this...
Could she have ever returned to a normal state?
Bianca would have likely just collected the bounty and handed her over to the Lord's castle once she got bored.
Her sister was selfish, fickle, and lacked the tenacity to focus on one thing for long.
Keeping Miel captive for several years might have been the longest thing she had ever done in her life.
"Excuse me... may I help a little?..."
Min-ah looked at her, bewildered, as if a voice had come from somewhere it shouldn't have.
"What are you... how did you come to your senses?..."
"I don't really know... but I want to repay you for helping me. If it weren't for Seon-ah, I would have suffered from Bianca's brainwashing forever..."
Even when Yu-rin had broken Seon-ah, and even when he was broken while she was playing with him, she had been the one to tend to his mind.
She knew she could restore his condition if she utilized her past experience.
With a heart full of gratitude for the boy who had saved her, Miel tried to offer the help she had never shown before.
"No... I cannot entrust Seon-ah to you... From now on, so that he won't suffer... I will take care of him as his mother..."
Looking at Min-ah's firm expression, Miel realized there was nothing she could do.
The things she had done couldn't be erased in an instant.
Min-ah would be justified in beating her to death right here.
Miel just wanted to stay by his side and help him.
She would apologize for everything once he properly regained his senses.
For that to happen, she had to open Min-ah's heart.
She had to show her true remorse and try to rebuild the trust she had so thoroughly destroyed.