Chapter 220 - Chapter 216: IF Side Story - Still Getting Devoured (18)
Following Bianca's orders, I began taking on three customers a day.
It's been a month, but I still haven't gotten used to selling my body.
I wish they'd just take what they want and leave, but these women always want to test me.
Those moments, in particular, were a huge threat to me.
Because I was making a living by selling my body so that Bianca wouldn't "dangerously go out to the Gate to earn money," I could never disobey a customer.
Except for one thing, that is.
"Haa... haa... ugh! Ughhh!..."
"You slutty bastard... To think you'd get this hard even when you're being pinned down by just any bitch... You're a natural-born whore. Tell me, is my pussy tighter than your wife's? Isn't it?"
"I don't knowww!"
Almost all the women get off on comparing Bianca's sexual skills to their own.
Knowing that Bianca is waiting right outside the door, they say it even more explicitly.
But I could never answer those kinds of comparisons.
Because that would truly be betraying Bianca.
"You're just a bitch who makes a living selling her husband's body anyway. Why don't you dump that woman and come to me? I'll make sure you aren't disappointed."
"...I only have Bianca."
"...You're going to refuse me like that, even though you're just a guy who sells his body?"
Suddenly, the movement stopped.
The demon woman who had just been grinding her hips on top of me grabbed my shoulders tightly and brought her face to my neck.
"Do you know what race I am? I'm a vampire. A race even more superior than that succubus... I'll show you something that feels better than those succubi who only spew out aphrodisiacs. Hehe..."
"What are you trying to do?... Ah..."
As the vampire locked eyes with me, all the strength left my body.
Confirming that I'd gone limp, the vampire slowly brought her face to my neck and began to sniff.
"You're soaked in the scent of other bitches' saliva... You really were a slutty bastard, despite your appearance..."
Lick.
I felt something soft and warm clinging to my neck.
Since I had no strength left, I intended to just let this unpleasant woman do as she pleased until she was satisfied, but suddenly, I felt a sharp pain in my neck.
Chomp!
I felt a burning sensation, but I couldn't resist.
My whole body started trembling.
The burning pain from my neck grew more intense and began to spread to every corner of my body.
"Ah... Aaaack! No! Bianca, save me! Save me! It hurts... No! Where are you, Bianca! Save me!"
"Tsk... Scream louder. Maybe then Bianca, who's outside, will change her mind and come to help you."
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Every time I sell my body, I feel it, but I thought I could endure anything as long as I could live safely with Bianca, even if my body kept getting dirtier.
But this time was different.
The reason I sell my body.
If that was a heart for Bianca, I felt like that heart was being encroached upon after being bitten by this vampire.
"No... No! I don't want to forget! No! No! Sob... sob... Aaaaah..."
Seon-ah, who had been struggling like a madman, stared blankly at the ceiling with unfocused eyes, like a doll with its strings cut.
"What... is that it?... Boring..."
Leaving the broken Seon-ah behind, the vampire got dressed, opened the door, and stepped out of the house.
Bianca, who had been waiting outside, spoke to the vampire.
"By the way, how did the request go?"
"It's finished. But to ask me to break your husband... Could I... hear the reason?"
Bianca looked deeply regretful.
"It just... seemed better for him to forget everything. It was painful. Every time I finished all the work. Seeing Seon-ah crying."
"No, not that... A high-and-mighty succubus like you would be better at messing with the mind... Why ask me?"
"...I won't tell you that."
"Well, sure, fine. I don't care as long as you keep your promise. Besides the advance payment, for the deferred payment, once a week for free. You know, right?"
"Yes... I understand."
With that, the vampire walked away into the distance with a refreshed expression.
Bianca watched her until she disappeared from sight, gritting her teeth.
With a painful yet sad expression.
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"I'm sorry, Seon-ah... I'm truly sorry..."
I thought it would be easier if I just treated him like a sex slave after planting false memories.
But that thought was so wrong.
Seon-ah, who always worries about me and thinks of me first.
I know full well that it's a false memory I planted, but hearing Seon-ah scream, calling my name, made me want to cover my ears.
Three people a day, without a day off.
The number of times Seon-ah sold his body became more than the number of times he shared his body with me.
I still can't forget the moment I sold Seon-ah's body to a woman on the first day.
After sending the customer into the room, leaving behind Seon-ah, who was smiling and telling me not to worry, every moment that followed was like hell to me.
The sound of Seon-ah's voice begging for help while calling my name, and the moans of the demon woman panting as she took Seon-ah.
At first, I thought it was just the shock of me not being used to it either.
However, after selling Seon-ah's body over and over again, I only realized it a little while ago.
The fact that I... already liked Seon-ah.
But I have no face left to see Seon-ah.
Because the one he loves is not me, but his family and Yu-rin.
Because I had merely turned the arrow of affection that should have originally been directed at Yu-rin toward me by planting false memories.
Realizing that fact, I was deathly envious of Yu-rin.
I never imagined I would be so envious of a woman I had never even met.
I wanted to return everything to the way it was.
If I love Seon-ah, it would be better not to monopolize him, but to help him live a better life.
However, returning Seon-ah's memories to their original state was impossible.
It was too late.
If I were to break the seal now, Seon-ah would be broken, with the memories of being brainwashed by me and the memories of selling his body to an unspecified number of women all mixed up.
If that were to happen, I thought I'd rather erase all the memories of the pain Seon-ah suffered.
And... I thought I'd send him back to the ordinary daily life he should have originally enjoyed.
However, erasing the memories I shared with Seon-ah with my own hands was too painful, so I couldn't do it.
I was a selfish bitch to the end.
Even so, if I asked my sisters or mother, Seon-ah would be sold to another territory, and I would be punished according to the Arandel family rules, so I had no choice but to borrow the hands of another demon.
It cost a lot of money to call a vampire who didn't belong to any place and entrust her with the request.
To cover that cost, I did this contradictory thing.
Using the money from selling Seon-ah's body all this time to hire a vampire and erase all the memories of the pain Seon-ah suffered.
Ah... that word I said to Seon-ah, telling him to sell his body... and the sad expression Seon-ah had when he heard it, still comes to mind.
Even though this is the last moment I'll be with Seon-ah, to think those bad memories are coming up.
They were truly regrettable things.
And...
Now I had to move to do one last regrettable thing.
Having finished her thoughts, Bianca took the unconscious Seon-ah and moved to the center of the territory where the Gate was.
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One of the guards protecting the Gate spotted Bianca and spoke to her.
"Oh. Bianca, I heard you're a newlywed, so you two are burning up at home. Are you going to the Gate for the first time in a while?"
"I have to start working now, too. I don't really like leaving my husband alone at home, but I have to work to make a living."
"You're more diligent than I thought. If it were me, if I had a husband like that, I would have just stayed holed up at home having sex until we both withered away. Hehehe."
"Haha... I wanted to do that too. But I prefer seeing my husband's face for a long time and living together."
They exchanged trivial jokes, but Bianca had a blank expression.
"But what's with that luggage?"
"Ah... this? It's supplies needed for an expedition to the Gate. I'm going alone this time, so I need quite a lot of supplies."
"Going alone this time... It's a shame I can't help you... If you come back safely, I'll treat you, so look forward to it."
"Then I'll look forward to it."
Bianca, carrying the giant burlap sack, headed toward the Gate.
The burlap sack she was carrying was 'regret'.
To me, for whom everything was a lie, who didn't know love, he was a man who taught me love, was precious, and now everything was empty.
I moved my feet to return him, whom I loved, and had loved, and can no longer love, to his original place.
Beyond the Gate, where blue magic ripples, toward the place where he should be.
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In front of the Gate, Bianca opened the mouth of the burlap sack and very carefully took out what was inside.
And then she sat on the ground and laid the soundly sleeping Seon-ah on her lap.
Black, soft hair.
Seon-ah's hair always feels good to touch.
However, my heart felt heavy knowing that this would be the last time I would enjoy this good feeling.
"The days I spent with you were purely my selfishness. The love I gained through lies eventually became real... Isn't it funny? Seon-ah?... I kidnapped you to live well on my own, worked you like crazy, and now the only thing I have to say is that I regret it."
Bianca, who smiled very slightly, looked up at the sky.
"At first, I only intended to use you. I only thought of you as a toy to relieve my mood, and when I made you sell your body to other women, I only saw you as a source of money. But you know... as I spent time with you, I came to know. Seon-ah, you are a person who devotes yourself to the person you love, even without controlling your mind."
While stroking Seon-ah's hair, I pressed his cheek once.
I remember the moments we've shared because I can feel the warm and soft touch wherever I touch.
"At one time, I was envious of the child named Yu-rin in your memories. If I hadn't done this, the affection you had built up for Yu-rin would have turned into feelings between lovers, and before long, you would have started dating her... I don't know how much my stomach hurt every time I realized that the devotion you showed me until now would have originally been for that child."
A drop of transparent liquid gathered and fell on Seon-ah's cheek.
"And so I came to know... the fact that I like you... and the fact that everything I did to you... is regrettable... Even to you, it looks foolish, right?..."
Even if I tried to wipe away the tears by sweeping his cheek with my palm, the amount falling increased.
"It's over now... Seon-ah... I'm sorry for making you lose all your memories... But the family by your side... and Yu-rin will continue to help you. If a way to find your memories ever arises... I will come to return everything except for those painful memories. Until then... goodbye..."
To be honest, that was close to impossible.
But if there was even a sliver of hope, I wanted to undo the thing I regret.
If that hope-like thing ever comes to pass, I will return to Seon-ah, admit all my wrongs, and accept the punishment he wants.
Bianca gently lifted Seon-ah's head from her lap and carefully moved it to the grass.
And she moved her feet toward the Gate again.
In that back view, neither the tenacious venom to fight for the successor position like before, nor the meanness to use others, could be felt.
There were only the succubus's wings that looked dejected, hanging limply.
After some time had passed, one unconscious man remained in the place where the Gate had disappeared.
As the mist of the Gate cleared, the military unit that had been surrounding and guarding the Gate found Seon-ah, whose life or death had been unclear after being missing for a month, right there.